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tiddlywynk

Member # 22

posted September 04, 2002 22:16

everything is going to shit right now.
my friend matt, who i met in january and have been head over heels in love with since july, is really, really mad at me.
he thinks i lied to him (i didn't), and that i insulted him (i didn't mean to).
i feel horrible.
he gave me his necklace (which is.. him. i can't explain it. it's his identity) before he was mad, and told me that i was family (he considers only about 6 of his friends to be family... none of his relatives).
and i want so desperately to believe that he'll forgive me, because i want to think that he wouldn't give me the necklace if he didn't really really care about me...
besides this, school started and i hate it.
junior year. sooo much homework, and agh.
i don't have many friends at my school.
i haven't been able to sleep. my hallucinations are too frequent, they keep me awake.
i need my driver's license.
everyone else has it, i want mine, argh.

yeah okay, this was gonna be way longer and in much more detail, but then i decided to fuck it. no one really wants to read my pathetic rants anyhow.
i'm gonna go to bed.
this post never happened.

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sickb0y

Member # 42

posted September 04, 2002 22:36

a warm hug for you... as warm as any virtual hug can be...

*hug*

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tiddlywynk

Member # 22

posted September 05, 2002 07:24

muchly appreciated.

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melissa

Member # 15

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posted September 05, 2002 15:06

yes, yes, a big *hug* for julie...

sorry things suck right now, maybe it will be not so bad soon? hope you feel better.

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tiddlywynk

Member # 22

posted September 05, 2002 16:23

thanks melissa...
he was also mad at my friend nara, and he's forgiven her... i'm hoping that means he'll forgive me soon...

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Christy

Member # 4

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posted September 05, 2002 17:20

I don't get it. But ok. People don't usually stay mad forever. Most people are forgiving.. so just wait it out until he's not in that "I HATE YOU" angry stage.

I hope things get better.

--Christy

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Clobber

Member # 38

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posted September 05, 2002 18:40

Yeah hopefully things don't stay shitty for long...

I hate when everything seems to be taking a turn for the worse..it really sucks....
But things will pick up eventually..so no worries.

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tiddlywynk

Member # 22

posted September 05, 2002 21:43

quote:
Originally posted by Christy:
just wait it out until he's not in that "I HATE YOU" angry stage.

thing is, he isn't in an "i hate you" angry stage. he's in a "i was having a very painful, emotional time in my life, and you made it worse" stage.
fuck, i dunno.

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Christy

Member # 4

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posted September 05, 2002 22:50

Does he know that you feel really bad about it and didnt mean to make his life worse?

I'm just as confused as you are.

--Christy

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tiddlywynk

Member # 22

posted September 08, 2002 09:41

yeah, he does. he's just at an extremely trying point in his life right now, so i hurt him more deeply than if he had been in a good mood.
he's having this whole thing where he doesn't feel like he "belongs" anywhere. and he was being really argumentitive, and i told him so, and he took it as me not wanting him there, which really didn't help with the belonging thing.
ugh.

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