i want to move to portland, i LOVE portland. it's very very cheap. not only in rent, but there is no sales tax on anything there. even though i will hate getting gas there because it's illigal or something to pump it yourself. and it's REEEEEEEEEEALLY hard to get a job there. i'm going to try to start looking after i get a job here. and i can only move there if iget a job. but i love it there, it's a lot of fun and everyone there is pretty nice.

but then... if i can't move there. i don't know where the HELL i want to go. i was all set. i said to myself "ok, i'm going to try to move to portland and if i can't, i will move to boston." but then i was in portland this past weekend and a friend from LA was up there and she said she wants me to move to LA and be her roommate.

one of the reasons why i would want to move to portland before possibly moving to boston is because i don't know if i'm ready to move allllll that way, and have everything be really different. boston scares me, but i think i want to go there. plus two of my friends who i LOVE TO DEATH live there and i would get to hang out with them all the time, and one REALLY wants me to move there.

but then with LA i wouldn't have to move so far and it would be really easy if i couldn't move in with my friend right away since my parents live there. but then if i lived in LA i would be too close to my parents. i wouldn't have to talk to them or see them or anything if i didn't want to, but i would seem like a real bitch if i didn't talk to them or visit or something (i still wouldn't do that stuff anyway if i didn't want to). and LA is EXPENSIVE (so is boston)... but i would be living with the CUTEST GIRL IN THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD WHO I LOOOOOOOOVE.